Back in Ipoh

Came back for study week. First thing I did was to update my files... My series and whatnot.

First day was fantastic!!! made much progress!!! but now, hampered by a bad connection..

Sorry Azri and Chee Hui, I got DCed from Garena.

Have I been here before.

It has been a long time since my last blog post. Much has happened since then. I have missed deadlines, greeted farewell to friends, and estranged others. I have been disappointed more than once. I have learned that you need to let go of things that will hold you back. Things that will corrupt you. People who, if you go out with too often, will lead only to pain and suffering.

People are sometimes too fickle. They say one thing but mean another, they promise one thing but do another, they preach but do not practice, they talk the talk but do not walk the walk.

I sometimes wonder, am I just the same as that, do I do a lot of talking but do not commit any action? But then again, what else is there to do but talk sometimes?

I have prided myself in being to let go. I am always the first to let go, the last to turn back. No, I never turn back. Or so I hope. It has happened again and again. The removal of the familiar. The new intimidation looming ahead with no safety but your own raw courage stirring within, urging you to go on, to stand tall in the face of adversity.

But standing here right now, is more intimidating than usual. I need to let go, but before that, I need to do something drastic. Is it a good deed? Will it be something I will regret?

It's what Tina and I call smoking. (not me, I don't smoke at all).

Fiddlesticks and fortitude.

I love the concept of turning back time. I just don't think it's practical.

Am I being too mean? Too kind? Too impervious? I don't really know anymore.

Should I stop trying?

Is this the end?

What will life be?

I know.

It will be as it was supposed to be.

The theory of parallel universes come to mind.

Ah, you need to be in my head to understand.

I have a lot else to say, but it won't be in this post.

Of Talentime and whatnot.

Thus with that, I publish this sad post.

I need work to do.

The first half of the semester is coming to an end, and what have I done so far? Nothing!! I need to buck up and actually start reading my reading materials, prepare for my classes, complete my assignments, and start acting like a student for once.

Besides that, I now realize how difficult it is to match a form.

Penang Destinations

Since I am still in vacation mood, and it is such a pity not to fully exploit the fact that I am living in Penang, I have also decided to compile a list of places I want to go to in Penang..

1. Penang Hill (hike/train/canopy walk)
2. Penang Botanical Gardens
3. Penang War Museum
4. Batu Feringghi
5. Fort Cornwallis
6. Penang Museum
7. Penang Butterfly Farm
8. Penang Spice Gardens
9. Penang Tropical Fruits Garden
10.Pulau Jerejak
11.Jubilee Clock Tower
12.Penang Bird Park
13.Cheong Fatt Sze Mansion
14.Penang Snake Temple
15.Penang Fisheries Department Research Institute Aquarium
16.Bukit Jambul Orchid, Hisbiscus & Reptile Garden
17.Komtar Scenic View
18.Monkey Beach
19.Penang National Park
20.Penang Bridge (on foot)

Let's see how many I can strike off by the end of the year..

Ennui.

It was New Year's Day.

It is supposedly happy for most people.

It started off pretty fine.

I had a Japanese dinner.

I had ice cream for dessert.

I squeezed with 8000 other people.

I counted down.

I saw pretty fireworks.

I greeted the New Year 2009.

I sang Happy Birthday to some people.

I took the bus, then walked home with friends.

I read a book.

I slept.

I woke up.

I got infected with ennui.

I got bored.

I ate both a Mars bar and a Snickers bar.

I like Snickers better.

I got disappointed.

I got very disappointed.

I Howard Hughes-ed the rest of the day.

I am hoping the next day is better, in fact I am making it better.

I am leaving for KL soon.

I am going to bed now.

ENNUI.

Crashing back to reality

The holidays are coming to an end, and finally, the weight of the coming semester seems to be beginning to bore down on me too quickly. I need to "depressurize" from this holiday high and start getting back into the real world.

One of the worst things that could happen this week is that I cannot register for my core courses online. So now I need to rush back to Penang the following day after coming back from Malacca to register these courses manually. And I cannot take French level 2 because it clashes with the core course I cannot register for!!!

And I will be taking 7 subjects/ 20 units again!! I wonder if it is healthy to do so?? And on top of that, I expect to be taking on more responsibilities in terms of AIESEC.

Its a good thing, right???

Post MyLDS Reflection.

As easy as it may seem, it is actually quite hard to put in writing all the wonderful insights that I have gained in MyLDS (Malaysia Leadership Development Seminar). I will share them to anyone who asks because it is more personal that way.

Besides that, I would just like to add that MyLDS was not your typical leadership training camp. You are not trained only to be a leader, but a positive change agent to impact the society around you. This is one of my aspirations now as an @er.

Just would like to share some of the things that have impacted me during MyLDS that have changed my life forever:

In chronological order:

1. Being voted for as Awesomers most outstanding eXchanger
2. Discovering my vision
3. Winning the best Square Dance for LCUSM
4. Losing the elections for LCP in my mock-LC
5. RACE
6. Being nominated as an outstanding delegate
7. Filling out the application form for Mock MCP elections
8. Making a difference in my mock-LC during LC simulation and MyAIESEC.net simulation
9. Being nominated as Top-20 in the Mock MCP elections with Evelyn and Jason
10.The interview for Top-10
11.Thanking the people who have inspired me this whole time (almost brought me to tears)
12.Having Evelyn and Jason stand along with me as top-10 of Mock MCP elections
13.The speech and Q&A sessions
14.Discovering that we are all winners in that aspect, because we know what we wanted and grabbed the opportunity to make a difference
15.Reading the sugar cubes that were written on the bus ride back

There are many more such moments and it would take a long time to list them all down, but these are the ones most significant to me. Just wanted to say to all who read this, I am an ordinary student who has big dreams. I went all out to achieve the goals that I have laid down for myself. Have you?